I thought about my decisions in the far and recent past and the factors that made me decide to push through or not. This includes both the big and small decisions that have defined my life as it is now. And I realised there were a lot of times I was pressured, instructed, or influenced by leaders around me. It could be someone superior in organisations I belonged to or even spiritual leaders at church. Many times it was my mom. It can also be friends who I considered were ahead of me in certain aspects or issues in my life, even though they weren’t my “leaders” per se.
They didn’t have to have an official title or position, but it was a matter of how I myself placed them in my life.